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Saturday, January 3, 2009
I miss mum.
I miss dad.
I miss A.
I miss Evergreen Secondary.
And I miss having a girlfriend :(
Friday night was fun. Sitting alone at Fullerton Bridge accompanied by a double cheeseburger,2 bottles of pepsi twist,mp3 and two sticks of Gudang Garam. The beautiful colours from the bridge really put my mind at ease. Reflecting back on my life. The past and the future. I miss my family. I miss Secondary life. Looking at how everyone's first day of school is really makes me jealous. It makes me feel really bad. I started throwing tantrums at everyone in the house. Throw things all around. This is how I am when I usually woke up from sleep when there's no food in house or anybody irritates me. I really need school :( I forget to apply for ITE and dad ask me to pay for my on fees if I want to go to private school. I don't really have support in my life. Friends are there for me,but not always they are there for me. They too have their on life. I just want to feel love from someone. Someone who will be there for me everytime I need a lap to rest my head,listen to my shits,play with my hair and whisper to me,"I'll always be there for you." I won't listen to anybody,not my mum,not my dad,not my close friends. But only one. The one that who could shower me with love,care and concerns. I miss those feelings. My future is dark. I really need someone to guide me in life. God,save me please.
New year resolution? There's no need for a fucking resolutions. Because I believe actions speaks louder than words.
And thanks to Ash Bibir. That one hour talk you give me about Love,Friends,Family and Scene shits really helped me alot. It may be a little advice but it does have a great impact. *salutes* I hope we can be friends until the day I die. Like you said,"Friends come and go. In life,there are only 2 bestfriends. Your mum and your dad. Friends may go but those 2 bestfriends will stay close to your heart."
Its reality bro you dont expect things to be fair. The world goes round. It revolves around there is when you have karma.You work for something. you get that something. you hope for something you get nothing. Either you win or you lose. -Fiz Grindpants I wanna fucking die.  ily emma.
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